Meet Monica Carr
I didn’t fall in love with myself until my world fell apart.
According to Webster’s dictionary, love is the strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties; affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interest.
I have faced trials throughout my life from being a victim of domestic abuse/alcoholism, homelessness, financial woes, and family dysfunction. Despite the many challenges that still braise my path, I’ve never dropped my “crown” or lost my faith.
I married my first love and father of my three daughters at the tender age of 17. I quickly realized love had a whole different meaning that included hurt and frustration.
I always put everyone's needs before mine. I didn’t realize I was losing myself in the process. I was suffering silently from depression.
I never seemed to catch a break. At a low point, we lived in a rundown hotel because we lost our apartment. Most nights, I stayed in a hotel room with my babies, scared and alone while crackheads banged on the door and my husband ran the streets.
I was far from home with no support system. Some nights, I’d cry alone in the bathtub. I never wanted my babies to see me crying, but I knew I had to be strong for them. I always seemed to find a way out of no way, but mentally I was in bondage.
The marriage ended in divorce after 18 years. It took the breakup for me to realize lying underneath all the pain lived a dynamic woman, who lay dormant for years yearning to be born and free. The entire time I had everything I needed within.
Today, I am a mother, grandmother, daughter, sister and friend whose addiction has always been doing more for others than for myself. My passion for helping others has taken on a whole new look. I can’t take care of others if I don’t take care of myself first.
I am totally in love with myself. According to Monica, love is knowing my worth and refusing to be victimized by anyone -- whether a job, relationship, or friend.
My love story is finding unconditional love for myself and making me a priority. No matter how many times I get knocked down, I remain resilient. I stand tall and proud with a crown knowing I AM ENOUGH, 365 days a year.